I made a habit to write my thoughts only in romanian, sometimes, just feels easier; my fingers dancing on the keyboard, and I feel I do not recognize what I write, words are just appearing "on the paper" and my thoughts and feelings are here, online, for everybody to see; it's just strange. It's happening so rarely these day to just open your heart and mind and soul and let others to just see you, you the one who has fears and dreams, you the one who hates and loves, you the one who's enjoying a walk in the park but has no time to do it, you who wants more and more from life and just forgets to give back. I realize that we are afraid to admit, even for ourselves, that we are not perfect, that we are mean, we have no moral principles, we hate and we distroy. As in the same time we can not admit that we love and we need love, that we have dreams and hopes, but we also need hope. I know I might not sound articulate here, it's just words that have no other way of coming into the world, but this.

I finnaly had a weekend for my own, I mean, half a weekend and I realized that I miss so much my time, my spare time, and when I finnaly have it, I do not know what to do with it. I find myself walking on the streets, coming home and leaving after 1 hour because I am not used to stay at home. I'm used with reading my books in the tram, in the bus or at the gym. I am used to listen to my music with earphones at my MP3 player always on my way, to work, to the gym, to supermarket, but not relaxing in an armchair with a warm light around me. I'm always in the hurry, even when I have time, when is just Sunday, I have no other plans, I'm laying in the jacuzzi at the healthclub and I'm just counting the minutes, bad habit :)

But ... for two weeks starting tomorrow I will have a long awaited vacation. I will have a work related assignment, flying to Prague for a regional meeting on 23rd, and going home for renewing my passport for this unplanned trip, but beside this, just long hours at the gym, laying at the pool, reading, lots of reading, going to the movies, enjoying some live music around Bucharest clubs. Hopefully I will charge my batteries at maximum power. Actually, I was just thinking about buying some Li-Ion batteries for long days and early nights, just for being able to stay awake and efficient ... indeed we are robots :))

Enough for today, otherwise, what else should I write next time?

aura